I Am No Skinny Celebrity Mom

Here in LA, celebrity moms lose their pregnancy weight anywhere from 2-6 weeks after giving birth. For instance, take a look at Nicole Kidman, there was a photo of her a week after her baby, Sunday was born and she was back in her skinny jeans and drinking coffee at the local Nashville Starbuck's store. (She also lives in LA, so I'm mentioning her here.) Halle Berry, Jessica Alba, Nicole Ritche, Christina Aguilera all had babies this year and they are back to wearing their pre-pregnancy clothes within less than two months of having their babies. All I can say is that they suck!! (Can you tell I'm a little bit jealous...)

I'm still at least 40 pounds overweight and my baby is now 6 months old. I'm feeling incredibly fat today and I still ate Junior Mints to cover up the self-hatred I feel at this moment. I'm tired of being fat, but I'm really not doing much to try to take it off at the moment.

I feel like such a failure when I see these moms back to looking pretty and skinny. I envy them. They have people to support them- a nanny/babysitter or family member to watch the baby while they are working out. They order food plans delivered to their homes or have a chef to cook for them.

On a side note, my husband just called to say he has to work today (Saturday) until 6:30 pm and then go back into work after the kids go to sleep. I just want to eat chips, cookies, cake, ice cream, etc. to fill up this void inside of me. I'm alone with the kids again. John's job is only super busy for two weeks in August and it is that time again. John is a wonderful partner and husband, but it gets hard when he isn't home a lot during this time. I feel lonely and to top it all off, the kids have this hacking cough and we can't go out of the house.

I know I am screaming "victim", but it is just how I feel today. My period is due any day, so I'm wallowing in self-pity, self-hatred, self-frustration and chocolate cravings.

I bid you celebrity moms adieu- lucky you that you are back to being glamourous and skinny. Do you love yourselves or do you still think you are fat?

I just finished off the box of Junior Mints I was eating. I don't feel better and I'm still feeling fat.

~Amy